You!!!!!!!

I dont know why i am writing about you but you were very special and always remain one. i met you and my whole world changed. we were complete strangers but there was a spark between us, which got clicked and the way u looked at me and said that you were ready to hear me whole your life, that just mesmerized me. Among that crowd you were the one i was looking at. after meeting you, i was tuned inside out. the days with you were unforgettable, we laughed, cried , played ,fought and then suddenly we changed and my world was devastated.

You were only one for me and nothing i cared for but you only dint care about me. You knew that i cant live without you, you were my dream, my fantasy, every breathe i took; without you there's no meaning of life or fun now i got is all tears but still am living & smiling coz i have a hope that one day you  will come and  say,"Where were you? you are mine and always be mine,so Will you marry me right here, right now?" And i dont know what i will say but even if i say no, that's not my no but a yes, as it ll be far more shocking to me.
I know, nothing that sort is going to happen as you are bugged of my talks which are irritating, you are frustrated by my sarcastic remarks, so there are no chance you coming back but let me be in hope which keeps me happy n alive & even give strength to fight the odds in life. It even makes me love you more as everyday brings a new hope in it. I was very angry on you when you took decision of leaving me but not now as i have understood that i really love you and only you. you are my god, my lover, my father, husband, brother, mother, sister, friend, etc..,in all these relations i saw you, so how can i angry on you for longer time.
You were the world to me and without you my world is a barren land but i believe in you n my love which will make you to come for me. hope you too love me the way i do! Will you come for me?

Me, is it selfish!

Past few days I have been thinking about me, satisfying me; is it being selfish or knowing myself n trying to act accordingly so I dnt have to face pains later..
 As other people i have encounter many ups & downs and wished i was never born but here i m fit n fine. So lately i thought i ll do something about I, which was invisible from my life. So i gave new turn to my life, changed my hair style, change my looks though m not ugly but gave some fine touch ups, joined gym to reduce some pounds & tried to get a job in India's finest Ad agency. I even stop thinking about guys, thats a major distraction to the recipe in thinking about just yourself.
Its not a magic that in a day i ll be wanna be but i tried and have a hope that yes thinking about myself ll give me some success. Thinking about me, helped me to overcome my weakness and strengthen my strengths. Life is just not about myself, we are social animals but its not even race of proving everyone how good i m!So Am I Selfish?